Wednesday, March 31, 2010

What a waste...

Since a long time I never blog already. I almost forgot my own password. What do you fell that your very very best friend that you consider talked something bad at your back ? What is the felling that being discriminated by your best friend and its linked to your friends network. Last time, I enjoyed conversation with them and shared my secret with them. Now we like having a limited boundaries with each others now.

This stories start...... several years ago, this person tough me to be more hardworking and help me in my academic. I felt that this person is a good guy that waked me up from my dreams. That days onwards any help he request me to help I typically never said the word "no". He is once listed and considered one of the person that I admired in my life. In university life, he always hide in his room and never mix with his house mate often initially. I convince him to join with others so that uni life will become more colourful. He did finally. Really he did. Even he has been moved to KL for further studies and we still keep in touch. For the few weeks before he moved I felt god damn sad and lonely at that period. Although we always argue physically.

I think the conflict start since we are playing Dota. Yes, a computer game established by Ice Frog and Blizard. This game has make our relationship falling to the deep. Argue about some bleedy gamming theory and make both of us going more far apart. I realised at last and I change myself although he did not have a chance to see. A day before today I when to KL with him and another friend to grab some chinese new year staff at the mall. This 3 days 2 night make me more furious about him. He always talking about my family rich. Initially, I can consider as a lame joke but please don't always hang on your mouth please. If you are not my friend I will like to said this is not your fucking business ok. My parents did not earn this money by doing crime like white collar crime. You can make any joke on me but not sensitive jokes like my family. One night among the trip, he suddenly come and tell me these statement "you do anything also like that one never listen to others people. No matter in studies or what even running I will always win you if I go for it." The first thing in my mind furious later curious and few days later I want to meet him officially and make the picture clear although I said I will wait. But the reply is "I think you know the problem le......hehe......" What a lame statement to reply. Sentence a person die without a reason this called friend la. The best of the best things he offended me is this one. After all those issue, I heard one of my friend going to switch to other university because of his unsatisfied result. One saturday I purposely stay back and accompany him for the interview and do something before he left us. He is a straight person and "mistalked" that the X person that I talked above always persuade him not to leave utar and call him often in the phone. The things that I cant accept is this person talked to him that I never care about friends. The whole world said this I also not as angry as he said. When my house mate are leaving who is the one who purposely stay for one week and accompany him. Who is the one who offer you a room to stayed while he back to Kampar. Besides that, did I said "no" to anyone of here if I can do so. Action speak louder than word. Not like somebody just talk in the phone and do nothing.

I also don't want to count any more. Lots of miscellaneous issue for instance embracing me and Eric with the Treakathon issue, discriminate a portion of your friends and so on. If the person that I mention above see this blog....GOOD ! Think back when I offended you the last time and am I purposely?

This person is one of the person that I admire before and wish to be like him. But no more, I fell disgrace my people around me if I was this kind of people.