Am I enjoying my semester break with no quota ???

After 23 sept 2010, I finished my last paper for my final exam. After that I try to ignore anything that make me worried about the result. I take 2 days time to put myself in the semester break mood. I tried my best in this final exam. More practice than previous one. More focus. Yes. For the last paper I did it well and excellent. But the only thing I worried is my first paper, Managerial accounting. The question is totally not different from what we learn. This really pull my mood to the deck. The only paper I worried is that. If I cant make it this semester I will say goodbye to UTAR.

I even pray on the temple for blessing me to go through this exam that I never did as much as previously. I always wish people good luck and no luck remain for me. Not to say that I too believe in religion but the only thing I can do now is pray very hard because I already did what I must did. I don't want to disappoint people around me. Yes, I am enjoying my semester break with no quota but bearing stress as other semester.

Memories Refreshed.

17th July, 2010 is the day that I have been waiting since Qiang said that he is coming to Kampar. No stress, play like a vacation boy and treasure the happy hours. This is what I had did year ago. In Kampar, You cant find anything to entertain yourself. The only things that make you happy is the time you gather with your friends. Especially old friend who far apart us.

If every semester we can have it once, I will gladly to stay at Kampar without going back hometown for that particular week. Utar sucks, I admit. But don't forget that Utar is the one who make us together. Fell a bit thankful to Utar. This brought back my memory that the Priest that visit our hostel and ask me about immortality. I am more than sure that I will not chose to be immortal, because I don't want to watch the one I care leaves continuously.

What a waste...

Since a long time I never blog already. I almost forgot my own password. What do you fell that your very very best friend that you consider talked something bad at your back ? What is the felling that being discriminated by your best friend and its linked to your friends network. Last time, I enjoyed conversation with them and shared my secret with them. Now we like having a limited boundaries with each others now.

This stories start...... several years ago, this person tough me to be more hardworking and help me in my academic. I felt that this person is a good guy that waked me up from my dreams. That days onwards any help he request me to help I typically never said the word "no". He is once listed and considered one of the person that I admired in my life. In university life, he always hide in his room and never mix with his house mate often initially. I convince him to join with others so that uni life will become more colourful. He did finally. Really he did. Even he has been moved to KL for further studies and we still keep in touch. For the few weeks before he moved I felt god damn sad and lonely at that period. Although we always argue physically.

I think the conflict start since we are playing Dota. Yes, a computer game established by Ice Frog and Blizard. This game has make our relationship falling to the deep. Argue about some bleedy gamming theory and make both of us going more far apart. I realised at last and I change myself although he did not have a chance to see. A day before today I when to KL with him and another friend to grab some chinese new year staff at the mall. This 3 days 2 night make me more furious about him. He always talking about my family rich. Initially, I can consider as a lame joke but please don't always hang on your mouth please. If you are not my friend I will like to said this is not your fucking business ok. My parents did not earn this money by doing crime like white collar crime. You can make any joke on me but not sensitive jokes like my family. One night among the trip, he suddenly come and tell me these statement "you do anything also like that one never listen to others people. No matter in studies or what even running I will always win you if I go for it." The first thing in my mind furious later curious and few days later I want to meet him officially and make the picture clear although I said I will wait. But the reply is "I think you know the problem le......hehe......" What a lame statement to reply. Sentence a person die without a reason this called friend la. The best of the best things he offended me is this one. After all those issue, I heard one of my friend going to switch to other university because of his unsatisfied result. One saturday I purposely stay back and accompany him for the interview and do something before he left us. He is a straight person and "mistalked" that the X person that I talked above always persuade him not to leave utar and call him often in the phone. The things that I cant accept is this person talked to him that I never care about friends. The whole world said this I also not as angry as he said. When my house mate are leaving who is the one who purposely stay for one week and accompany him. Who is the one who offer you a room to stayed while he back to Kampar. Besides that, did I said "no" to anyone of here if I can do so. Action speak louder than word. Not like somebody just talk in the phone and do nothing.

I also don't want to count any more. Lots of miscellaneous issue for instance embracing me and Eric with the Treakathon issue, discriminate a portion of your friends and so on. If the person that I mention above see this blog....GOOD ! Think back when I offended you the last time and am I purposely?

This person is one of the person that I admire before and wish to be like him. But no more, I fell disgrace my people around me if I was this kind of people.

I fell different with others.....

Majority of the people around me is very playful, enjoy life and so on. But myself really did not find it was so enjoy. Some people can get things done so easy but I cant done it so effective. Some of my friend was so desire in love during he was in an university life. But I take it as a high risk of investment. Some people never want to mansion about their old days. But I really damn shit missing the old days.

Is this because my thinking was still in globalization 2.0 ??? Or I still cant catch up the new trend???

Since a long time I never post a blog here. Around half year I think. I see changes around me including friends leaving, other people pathway, my personal changes and more. I am getting worst day by day. No matter in what field. I not even confident to go through this semester. Why somebody can make it so easy and not me. I know the reason but I din have the intention to self motivate.

I will be myself as last time......

Forever......

I affraid of lose.

Utar trackathon coming near recently. 22-11-09. KL, Lake Garden. Long time no train. Not even can achieve basic performance. what I want to said here today is I am not as before. The only things is I am still affraid of lose.

Lost 2 friend in my life now.......

This 2 person is the person that I not willing to see them leave UTAR in this 4 years. But what can I see now is this is impossible.

One of them is the one who tough me how to plays DOTA. He is Ah Yang. In this game, he teach me lots of things like map sense, KS, aggresive playing style and more... sometimes even seeing him run to 2nd floor and do nothing but jumped towards the fan. I will never forget that we goes sky online together, discussed DOTA together and share fellings together. Wish you good luck in your studies. Still remember that 2008 my birthday you are the one who knocked my door when I was sleeping at a very bad mood. I scolded you at that time. I felt sorry when I realised that the current day my birthday. But too bad you din't have a chance to celebrate my birthday tomorrow.

Another guy was really talkative in last semester and always do something very crazy. That nuts called Yen Huey. I can always heard something like...."Just kidding"....."Not really"....."Pro la".....and more. Although just one semester we can see each other but is considered as a precious time when we still together. I don't know is he seeing my blog or not. But as a friend I really hope to know why he want to cahnge University at this time. I would force you to tell, because you will told me if you want. But you just left us a letter and not even let us see your last face is a regret for us. Besides that, you din't have a chance to smack me with a cake tomorrow as what you did to Nigel before. But I hope we really can keep in touch. THE REAL KEEP IN TOUCH. Because this words I heard for many times but I never get a reply for "centuries".

If the god grant me a wish. I will hope that all 1333 members will graduate will flying colours no matter which University and where we are. Haiz.... suddently 1333 become a silence house not as noissy as before. Really got a little sad.